Just some random thoughts

Just sharing some random thoughts that crossed my mind

I thought I had some awesome friends here but lately I have been hurt by them. I am not sure what I did wrong and why nobody wants to hangout with me. I know that Chucks only at JRTC for a few weeks but since hes been gone I had no friends to hangout with. So the time has been dragging which stinks and actually makes me sad. I am the friend if you want someone to hangout with or talk to I am there for you. But yes I need a friends to that I can just chat with. I am not sure if I am gonna make it through a year when Chuck deploys. I am not looking forward to that time and being alone in NC. I thought about going back to NY while Chuck was gone but we would lose our house so that would stink. I am lost of what to do. I just want to be happy. Yes I could get a job but I still would have to come home to a empty house and just my cat. Yes I am a armywife and I knew when I married Chuck that I was marrying a soldier. I love him very much and I support him and the troops. I just want to have friends that want to hangout. Please dont put a mean comment to this random though that I had. I dont need it.

I hate rumors to yes they spread like wild flowers everywhere. I am not sure why anyone likes do to it. Yes they spread rumors to at JRTC. Chuck calls me the other day and said that they might be going to another place instead of the sandbox. If that happens the deployment date will change to. So to make myself feel better and calm I am just gonna wait until I know for sure instead of worrying.

I dont understand why my cat dosent like to sleep at night time. Everynight now since Chucks been gone she comes in our room and crys. I guess she dosent think that I need to sleep. She wants me to get up for her and play with her and give her treats. She just wants attention. Well I dont mind giving her attention and stuff but when I am sleeping I dont want to be bothered by her.